OMG! I just ran 1/3 of a half mile stint. I know thats not much, but I havent ran since before I broke my leg! I have been terrified of getting hurt again. That my bones would snap and I would go through all that pain again.

I started off walking. I walked one lap which is just shy of a quarter mile. Had to warm up. The old me wanted to quit right then. I was tired and slightly winded. I could feel that old voice in my head telling me it was good enough. That I got out there and walked. That was enough.

Well, the new me reared up at that. In my past life I SO would have quit right there. The new me snapped back and said NO! I am breaking out of my comfort zone. Not just with trying new foods, but with pushing myself past my comfort zone physically too. So I went on to do interval training. I walked from one station (our park has fitness stations) to another, then jogged the next, then walked and so on and so forth. Until I made it to the end. Liberating!

Today I have a jam packed schedule. I have some errands to run, got to take the kids to the doctors and I am going to Peoplelink Staffing and telling them off. They didnt even give me a chance! They set me up for a factory tour and then told me I wasnt employable because of my lack of recent work history. Thats a lot of people. I cant help it my daughter gets sick easy. I cant guarantee that she wont be sick again either! What I do know is that I need money right now. And I deserve an equal opportunity of employment.

I thought since I had good work history with that company that I would be able to get a fair deal. I guess not. And yes there is a lot of bitterness in that statement. Its not fair that I cant seem to get a break anymore. Sometimes, I wonder if God is trying to keep me down and needy for kicks. I know the lowliest and meek are the ones He is going to save first... still, I have a huge electric bill I need to get paid. RIGHT NOW!